Ugh school, you are over a month from starting and already I am so done with you. Honestly, nothing should be causing me this much stress. Your website sucks, you aren't counting my credits, I don't want to take your stupid classes for stupid people with no mind, and I can't figure out how to get a hold of anyone. Your orientation was useless, your catalog is pathetic, and your entire system sucks.
I don't want to be in school. Let me rephrase that. I don't want physically go to school and attend classes within classrooms. I want to take my classes online. I want to HAVE to take my classes online because I'm not around to be in classrooms. I don't want to deal with other students. I just want to get my book, notes, be able to contact a professor, and take the stupid tests. I don't care about your learning environment. Just let me do it on my own. Frick.
Stop babying everyone. Don't give your incoming freshman booklets for their parents about how to talk to you about alcohol with sections to take notes. I almost puked when my brother showed me that. Don't send me to an orientation and waste my time explaining things to me in a poor fashion. Just put all the information I need online in a way that freaking makes sense so that when I need that information, I can go look at it. As many times as I need to.
I don't want to be in school. I want to be out LIVING! I want to find my music style and I want to be creating it. I want to build my clothing company. I want to be working for Alternative Press. I don't want to be going to college. Again let me rephrase that: I want to be going to college, but I want to have to do it online because the other things in my life (music and my business) to be taking up the rest of my time.
I don't want to sit at a desk any longer listening to a droning lecture.
I feel that attending these classes is the biggest waste of my time.
Unfortunately, I have to keep going until the other stuff in my life takes off.
So school, stop wasting my time. Stop causing my stupid stress. Show me what I need to do and I'll do it. It's that simple. I don't want all the extra bull. Give that to someone without a brain who doesn't know what they want.
That would be cool.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Forever The Sickest: The Salt Lake Weekend
Alrighty kids, prepare yourselves because I am about to tell you about one of the best weekends of my life. And I've had some great weekends. Pretty sure this one takes the cake and eats it too. So this will be long, but oh so worth it. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll be green with envy if you're anything like me. I am still so excited. I've also posted a song from each of the artists I go into detail with. Just some favorite songs. Also, click on the pictures for the full effect
Ready, set, lets document.
So for those of you who don't know, my sister is a competitive Irish dancer. She and my mother and I travel around the northwest attending these competitions called a feis (fesh) throughout the year. I compete in singing. I don't really know why I do it. I know it's good support for my sister and I can help her get ready and stuff, but the competitions aren't hard soooooooo. I mean, it's usually me and a couple 14-16 year olds that aren't that impressive. Sorry, but it's true. But I do it anyway. I probably won't be doing it anymore, except the one here and in Salt Lake cuz that one is held by our school. ANYWAY, back in the day my mom asked if I was going. I said idk. Turned out though, Spencers farewell was that weekend. I think that's a good reason to go to Salt Lake. And free ride? I vote yes. Then, I realized that it was also the same weekend as Warped Tour. There was no keeping me away.
Friday morning the 27th of June, we loaded the car and left with 2 other families going to the competition also, hit up the Human Bean (great place), and were on the road.
Precisely five hours later, we arrived at our hotel in Salt Lake. Well, I guess Murray, I don't really know it's all confusing. Anyway, Erin and I competed in singing that night. It took my whole freaking life. And I messed up hardcore. Got third though out of like 20ish people. Ellen saw it too. That was kind of cool. Then Ellen and I ditched and went to see Spencer! The three of us hit up Wendy's, then met up with some of Spencers friends for Wall-E. GREAT flick! My mind wandered a little bit...I got a little restless, but I made it through. I almost thought I was going to die of boredom. This is what happens when you take me, wake me up 6 hours before I would normally wake up, drive me around for 5 hours, then make me sit around for a competition for 2. And I'm supposed to sit in a theater and watch a movie? Hello, add all that to my 3 year old attention span, no bueno. But I made it through. It was great.
Saturday, June 28th: Went to the feis for a little bit, then Ellen came to get me. We watched Erin dance one of her dances and then left. She did really well in the competition. First we dropped off my stuff at her house, as I was going to be staying with her, and met up with Lo. Then, it was off to WARPED TOUR!!!!
This was our first Warped Tour experience. I didn't know what to expect. A bunch of goths? Drugs? Dirtiness? Loudness? Basically it was beautifulness in a day. Seriously guys it's like DISNEYLAND when all the characters walk around and you meet them, but replace that with some of your FAVORITE FREAKING BANDS! Glorious.
First up was We The Kings.
Great set, great show. Way fun. I love to dance. And they were really into the crowd which is always a huge plus. Seriously, talk to us without being awkward. Cuz it's just great.
Then, it was off to basically, our main event. This was what we planned our day around. Forever The Sickest Kids and The Maine. We had some time so we checked out the booths, looking mostly for FTSK and The Maines booths. We found them. And The Maine was chillin at theirs. So we chilled with them.
HOW SICK IS THAT?!?! One of my favorite bands and we just chilled with them for a bit. SICK! TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY SICK!! Holy life kids! Then it was time for their sets. Here's some more pictures:
Forever The Sickest Kids
The Maine
Caleb - FTSK - guitar (SUCH a great guy! ellen and i met him at their show in salt lake in march. SOOOOO great! love him)
John Cook - FTSK - vocals
Kennedy - The Maine - gutiar (he smiled and i was head over heels GONE)
John O - The Maine - vocals (so great also. i talked to him on the phone when kara went to their show in boise and he called kara when we chilled with them and left her a message. such a great guy)
After The Maines set, I really wanted their set list. So I asked Kennedy. Unfortunately, they didn't have any. He was really sorry, but told me he loved me. Which is good enough for me! I think that's a fair trade. I mean, I don't have physical proof of it, and the set list would be physical proof, but I'm pretty sure I'll take Kennedy's personal love over a piece of paper. So that's cool.
Then, FTSK did an acoustic set and signing.
Left to right that would be Kent, Austin (he makes the funniest faces), John, Kyle, and Caleb. Then Marc, but we weren't at the right angle to get all of them :( 
And then there was their signing. My new phone background is me and Kyle, the drummer. That's not the picture on my phone, but Kyle is PRESH! Ellen and I got another picture of us with Caleb:
I got to talk on the mic to FTSK during their acoustic set. John made sure I got to go. I was the last one. Awesome. I told them about how I'm not even from Salt Lake, but I've driven to see them there twice. Cuz I'm an awesome fan. John was way nice about making sure I talked on the mic. Just great.
Afterwards, we went back by The Maines merch booth. We met Patrick their drummer, who was not around the first time we stopped by. He signed a poster for me and one for Ellen. Then as we were leaving John O came back so we got pictures with him.
We also did some other stuff like play with sunglasses,
watched The Maine with my friend Jake from home, saw Hailey and Paul at Angels&Airwaves, watched The Color Fred, Say Anything, and Family Force 5. We also drank water. Lots of it. It was in the 90s that day, and we were sweating hardcore. I mean, you can't rock out and not. But I didn't pee that day until about 11 at night. Awesome.
The last band we saw for the day was Family Force 5. I also missed them when they came to Boise, and I just wanted more than a lot to see them play Luv Addict. I just love that song. But we were totally exhausted. But we had to see it. So we chilled in the shade until their set, and then when they were ready to come on we just chilled towards the back of the crowd. I had originally planned to seriously just chill and stand in the back and watch them play Luv Addict, especially since I though it would be at the end of their set. Well it wasn't. it was like their 4th song. And when it started something just came over me. I couldn't help myself. I pulled my backpack straps tight, and I ran right into that crowd. I was gone. I danced and I screamed along to that song. I guess I figured, hey, this is my last Salt Lake City Warped Tour 2008 song, I am going out in style. And in style I went.
So after Warped Tour, we hit up MolcaSalsa, an after concert must. We actually saw the kids who were in front of us at Family Force 5 there. Then we went back to Ellen's house, shared pictures and video, and went to bed.
Sunday, June 29th: Sunday was the day of Spencers mission farewell. Originally, I was supposed to leave this morning to head on back to Boise, but I felt that I needed to stay, so I stayed an extra 2 days just for him. Ya that's right Spencer, I may not have come for you, but I stayed for you. Then there was a party at his house with his friends and fam. P.S. LOVE his Mom! Spencer, love your Mom. I only met her once when he was moving out of the dorms, but she remembered me and was just so great. Spencer did a very nice job at his talk also. And the song. Just great. It was cool to see him and his older broha sing together. I also like stuff like that.
Then, it was back to Ellens for family dinner. Us, her younger broha, older sister and boyfriend, Ellens boyfriend, her parents, older broha and his wife and their kid, and both sets of grandparents. It was a freaking party. They were all so nice. Then we played some Guitar Hero cuz Riley (Ellens boy) had never played. Shame. We won't blame him, he's only been back from the mish like 4 weeks. Then the three of us hit up the Salt Lakes Arts Festival, courtesy of 3 free tickets from Grandma Ririe. It was huge. Awesome. Then it was back to Ellens house for a viewing of the Aunt Melinda Show. Very funny. Probably embarrasing for Ellens family, but so great.
Monday, June 30th: Ellen had to work in the morning which wasn't a huge bummer cuz I wanted to sleep a bit, but Spencer wanted to sleep a lot so we didn't hang out. No big deal. But no one was home, so I played guitar hero 2. Again, not a big deal. I got the high score on The Killers When We Were Young on expert. I'm pretty proud about that one. Then Robin (Ellens madre) came home and let me borrow her car to go down to Ellens work for lunch. How kind of her. Seriously, how many people offer a 19 year old they've just met for the first time to use their car when she has never in her life driven herself around Salt Lake and it was only her third time there? Awesome people that's who. (whenever i say 'thats who' i think of the nanny/cook/maid in Mary Poppins. The shorter one, cuz she says that after the nanny leaves 'who gets stuck caring for the children? me thats who' except she says oo instead of who. great)
So by the time Ellen got off work it was time for me to head to the airport basically. But we had enough time to stop by Deseret Book by the temple. I needed a postcard with the temple on it for a birthday card for my friend on his mish in Canadia. We also found temple stickers which I stuck all over the back and then wrote happy birthday over it in sharpie. Straight up! I'm so crafty. Then I was almost late for my flight. But no worries! I made it with time to spare. Thanks Ellen! She was stressed.
So it's pretty bittersweet leaving. Love SLC and my friends, love Boise and my friends, love SLC shows, love Boise shows. It's pretty cool that I have 2 places in my life like these. I'm really going to miss chilling with Ellen and Lo. And I'm really going to be missing Spencer cuz he leaves Wednesday for the MTC and then Germany. That sucks. Well, only kind of but ya it sucks. I'm just gonna say, it's not really fair that I only met Spencer less than a year ago, and had all this other useless time with people I don't like. Not a fair trade. But seriously, quality people right there. And their families. Quality people, quality friendships, quality times. Quality. It might not be very much in quantity, but that weekend was one of the most quality weekends of my life. Also, bands = great kids. At least when it comes to these bands it does.
But wait?! It's not over. Turns out, the concert this Saturday isn't sold out. Boys Like Girls with Good Charlotte, Metro Station, Love You Long Time, and THE MAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What's even better....ROAD TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS! Reggie, Christina, Chaz (we just recently decided to take a road trip together, well here it is!) and KARA! KARA AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE THE MAINE TOGETHER!!!! Plus Ellen and Lo are coming to that one also. Pricelress. That will also be epic. The blog to come next week sometime.
So thanks for reading and hopefully feeling a little bit of joy. Because I felt joy reliving it. I basically relive it every morning day and night. It will never get old. I love you also Kennedy, thank you for telling me you love me. Thank you Caleb for remembering me and Ellen from The Avalon when you had a fever. Thank you John for making sure I got to talk on the mic. You didn't worry about the others, just me. Awesome. Thanks Kyle for taking an awesome picture with me for my phone. Pat, Jared, Garret, Kent, Marc, and Austin, I thank you also. Thanks to my friends who go on these adventures with me, and the families that allow us to do that. And thanks to these bands for being so totally great. Just great.
The most epic weekend of my life.
P.S. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO convinced I'm allergic to Utah. I sneezed a ton at school, and all the time during the weekend. Awkward. How does that make you feel guys? I'm allergic to your state.
P.P.S. I wanted to post some videos, but it just takes way too long. I will add them on a video real later.
Ready, set, lets document.
So for those of you who don't know, my sister is a competitive Irish dancer. She and my mother and I travel around the northwest attending these competitions called a feis (fesh) throughout the year. I compete in singing. I don't really know why I do it. I know it's good support for my sister and I can help her get ready and stuff, but the competitions aren't hard soooooooo. I mean, it's usually me and a couple 14-16 year olds that aren't that impressive. Sorry, but it's true. But I do it anyway. I probably won't be doing it anymore, except the one here and in Salt Lake cuz that one is held by our school. ANYWAY, back in the day my mom asked if I was going. I said idk. Turned out though, Spencers farewell was that weekend. I think that's a good reason to go to Salt Lake. And free ride? I vote yes. Then, I realized that it was also the same weekend as Warped Tour. There was no keeping me away.
Friday morning the 27th of June, we loaded the car and left with 2 other families going to the competition also, hit up the Human Bean (great place), and were on the road.
Precisely five hours later, we arrived at our hotel in Salt Lake. Well, I guess Murray, I don't really know it's all confusing. Anyway, Erin and I competed in singing that night. It took my whole freaking life. And I messed up hardcore. Got third though out of like 20ish people. Ellen saw it too. That was kind of cool. Then Ellen and I ditched and went to see Spencer! The three of us hit up Wendy's, then met up with some of Spencers friends for Wall-E. GREAT flick! My mind wandered a little bit...I got a little restless, but I made it through. I almost thought I was going to die of boredom. This is what happens when you take me, wake me up 6 hours before I would normally wake up, drive me around for 5 hours, then make me sit around for a competition for 2. And I'm supposed to sit in a theater and watch a movie? Hello, add all that to my 3 year old attention span, no bueno. But I made it through. It was great.Saturday, June 28th: Went to the feis for a little bit, then Ellen came to get me. We watched Erin dance one of her dances and then left. She did really well in the competition. First we dropped off my stuff at her house, as I was going to be staying with her, and met up with Lo. Then, it was off to WARPED TOUR!!!!
This was our first Warped Tour experience. I didn't know what to expect. A bunch of goths? Drugs? Dirtiness? Loudness? Basically it was beautifulness in a day. Seriously guys it's like DISNEYLAND when all the characters walk around and you meet them, but replace that with some of your FAVORITE FREAKING BANDS! Glorious.First up was We The Kings.
Great set, great show. Way fun. I love to dance. And they were really into the crowd which is always a huge plus. Seriously, talk to us without being awkward. Cuz it's just great.Then, it was off to basically, our main event. This was what we planned our day around. Forever The Sickest Kids and The Maine. We had some time so we checked out the booths, looking mostly for FTSK and The Maines booths. We found them. And The Maine was chillin at theirs. So we chilled with them.
HOW SICK IS THAT?!?! One of my favorite bands and we just chilled with them for a bit. SICK! TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY SICK!! Holy life kids! Then it was time for their sets. Here's some more pictures:
Forever The Sickest Kids
The Maine
Caleb - FTSK - guitar (SUCH a great guy! ellen and i met him at their show in salt lake in march. SOOOOO great! love him)
John Cook - FTSK - vocals
Kennedy - The Maine - gutiar (he smiled and i was head over heels GONE)
John O - The Maine - vocals (so great also. i talked to him on the phone when kara went to their show in boise and he called kara when we chilled with them and left her a message. such a great guy)
After The Maines set, I really wanted their set list. So I asked Kennedy. Unfortunately, they didn't have any. He was really sorry, but told me he loved me. Which is good enough for me! I think that's a fair trade. I mean, I don't have physical proof of it, and the set list would be physical proof, but I'm pretty sure I'll take Kennedy's personal love over a piece of paper. So that's cool.
Then, FTSK did an acoustic set and signing.
Left to right that would be Kent, Austin (he makes the funniest faces), John, Kyle, and Caleb. Then Marc, but we weren't at the right angle to get all of them :( 
And then there was their signing. My new phone background is me and Kyle, the drummer. That's not the picture on my phone, but Kyle is PRESH! Ellen and I got another picture of us with Caleb:
I got to talk on the mic to FTSK during their acoustic set. John made sure I got to go. I was the last one. Awesome. I told them about how I'm not even from Salt Lake, but I've driven to see them there twice. Cuz I'm an awesome fan. John was way nice about making sure I talked on the mic. Just great.
Afterwards, we went back by The Maines merch booth. We met Patrick their drummer, who was not around the first time we stopped by. He signed a poster for me and one for Ellen. Then as we were leaving John O came back so we got pictures with him.
We also did some other stuff like play with sunglasses,
watched The Maine with my friend Jake from home, saw Hailey and Paul at Angels&Airwaves, watched The Color Fred, Say Anything, and Family Force 5. We also drank water. Lots of it. It was in the 90s that day, and we were sweating hardcore. I mean, you can't rock out and not. But I didn't pee that day until about 11 at night. Awesome. The last band we saw for the day was Family Force 5. I also missed them when they came to Boise, and I just wanted more than a lot to see them play Luv Addict. I just love that song. But we were totally exhausted. But we had to see it. So we chilled in the shade until their set, and then when they were ready to come on we just chilled towards the back of the crowd. I had originally planned to seriously just chill and stand in the back and watch them play Luv Addict, especially since I though it would be at the end of their set. Well it wasn't. it was like their 4th song. And when it started something just came over me. I couldn't help myself. I pulled my backpack straps tight, and I ran right into that crowd. I was gone. I danced and I screamed along to that song. I guess I figured, hey, this is my last Salt Lake City Warped Tour 2008 song, I am going out in style. And in style I went.
So after Warped Tour, we hit up MolcaSalsa, an after concert must. We actually saw the kids who were in front of us at Family Force 5 there. Then we went back to Ellen's house, shared pictures and video, and went to bed.
Sunday, June 29th: Sunday was the day of Spencers mission farewell. Originally, I was supposed to leave this morning to head on back to Boise, but I felt that I needed to stay, so I stayed an extra 2 days just for him. Ya that's right Spencer, I may not have come for you, but I stayed for you. Then there was a party at his house with his friends and fam. P.S. LOVE his Mom! Spencer, love your Mom. I only met her once when he was moving out of the dorms, but she remembered me and was just so great. Spencer did a very nice job at his talk also. And the song. Just great. It was cool to see him and his older broha sing together. I also like stuff like that.
Then, it was back to Ellens for family dinner. Us, her younger broha, older sister and boyfriend, Ellens boyfriend, her parents, older broha and his wife and their kid, and both sets of grandparents. It was a freaking party. They were all so nice. Then we played some Guitar Hero cuz Riley (Ellens boy) had never played. Shame. We won't blame him, he's only been back from the mish like 4 weeks. Then the three of us hit up the Salt Lakes Arts Festival, courtesy of 3 free tickets from Grandma Ririe. It was huge. Awesome. Then it was back to Ellens house for a viewing of the Aunt Melinda Show. Very funny. Probably embarrasing for Ellens family, but so great.
Monday, June 30th: Ellen had to work in the morning which wasn't a huge bummer cuz I wanted to sleep a bit, but Spencer wanted to sleep a lot so we didn't hang out. No big deal. But no one was home, so I played guitar hero 2. Again, not a big deal. I got the high score on The Killers When We Were Young on expert. I'm pretty proud about that one. Then Robin (Ellens madre) came home and let me borrow her car to go down to Ellens work for lunch. How kind of her. Seriously, how many people offer a 19 year old they've just met for the first time to use their car when she has never in her life driven herself around Salt Lake and it was only her third time there? Awesome people that's who. (whenever i say 'thats who' i think of the nanny/cook/maid in Mary Poppins. The shorter one, cuz she says that after the nanny leaves 'who gets stuck caring for the children? me thats who' except she says oo instead of who. great)
So by the time Ellen got off work it was time for me to head to the airport basically. But we had enough time to stop by Deseret Book by the temple. I needed a postcard with the temple on it for a birthday card for my friend on his mish in Canadia. We also found temple stickers which I stuck all over the back and then wrote happy birthday over it in sharpie. Straight up! I'm so crafty. Then I was almost late for my flight. But no worries! I made it with time to spare. Thanks Ellen! She was stressed.
So it's pretty bittersweet leaving. Love SLC and my friends, love Boise and my friends, love SLC shows, love Boise shows. It's pretty cool that I have 2 places in my life like these. I'm really going to miss chilling with Ellen and Lo. And I'm really going to be missing Spencer cuz he leaves Wednesday for the MTC and then Germany. That sucks. Well, only kind of but ya it sucks. I'm just gonna say, it's not really fair that I only met Spencer less than a year ago, and had all this other useless time with people I don't like. Not a fair trade. But seriously, quality people right there. And their families. Quality people, quality friendships, quality times. Quality. It might not be very much in quantity, but that weekend was one of the most quality weekends of my life. Also, bands = great kids. At least when it comes to these bands it does.
But wait?! It's not over. Turns out, the concert this Saturday isn't sold out. Boys Like Girls with Good Charlotte, Metro Station, Love You Long Time, and THE MAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What's even better....ROAD TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS! Reggie, Christina, Chaz (we just recently decided to take a road trip together, well here it is!) and KARA! KARA AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE THE MAINE TOGETHER!!!! Plus Ellen and Lo are coming to that one also. Pricelress. That will also be epic. The blog to come next week sometime.
So thanks for reading and hopefully feeling a little bit of joy. Because I felt joy reliving it. I basically relive it every morning day and night. It will never get old. I love you also Kennedy, thank you for telling me you love me. Thank you Caleb for remembering me and Ellen from The Avalon when you had a fever. Thank you John for making sure I got to talk on the mic. You didn't worry about the others, just me. Awesome. Thanks Kyle for taking an awesome picture with me for my phone. Pat, Jared, Garret, Kent, Marc, and Austin, I thank you also. Thanks to my friends who go on these adventures with me, and the families that allow us to do that. And thanks to these bands for being so totally great. Just great.
The most epic weekend of my life.
P.S. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO convinced I'm allergic to Utah. I sneezed a ton at school, and all the time during the weekend. Awkward. How does that make you feel guys? I'm allergic to your state.
P.P.S. I wanted to post some videos, but it just takes way too long. I will add them on a video real later.
I'm So Ready
I've been saying for awhile that theres some blogs I want to get written before a certain friend leaves on his mission, but recently I have just found myself to be so busy with work or friends or family. I just don't really have any 'me' time going on. I haven't played guitar in ages. Ok that's a lie I did today, but I haven't played just for the sake of playing. And I haven't written a thing either. I think that sometimes we can often get to a point where our minds can't see past the end of our nose. I don't really care for those times. What's worse is that I know I'm being productive, but I really don't feel as though I am.
I don't really know where I'm going with this, but at the same time I kind of do because I'm thinking it out in my head before I type it. I've probably got a good paragraph pre-revision in my head, ahead of my typing. Anyway, point is, I basically feel that I'm spending all my time working. Which is understandable when I'm working 9 hour shifts 5 days a week. And when I'm not working I'm getting calls about work or doing something for work. Seriously, how ever did my life get sucked into Coldstone Creamery? Like, it's easy for me to get sucked into things I'm passionate about. But Coldstone? Really? Definitely not passionate about that one.
So really, the point isn't about the work, but about balancing life and work. I spend quite a bit of time with my friends and working, but not enough time with my family and working on my personal projects. I feel my life is lacking because of it. I did take my dog for a walk downtown 2 nights ago with a friend. I feel like I've been neglecting him. But I hardly see my family. I'm rarely home in time for dinner. Thank goodness vacation is coming up. All things need balance. And I haven't worked on my music, or my clothing company. It's taking a toll.
So what do we do when our lives are unbalanced? Many people don't notice. I do. And I think the world around us (believe in what you will it doesn't matter to me) wants to try and balance that for us, because it knows it is creating something positive. I like to think that that has just happened to me. I mean, last weekend I had an absolutely fantastic weekend with friends in SLC, but after returning home I felt quite depressed. Well, not really depressed, but like I was missing somethings. I don't really know what things, just things. Feelings. Happiness. I don't know if I can ever be so happy as when I am at a show, for a musician I just love. Sometimes I forget that feeling. Then I feel it again and the world is great and new. I think my regular life has lost that flare. I just don't feel it. That's why being back from SLC was such a huge bummer. I felt the flare and realized it wasn't here for once.
But like I said, my world tries to even itself out. How nicely my life is falling back into place. There's an amazing concert a week from tonight in SLC. I will be there. With my SLC friends (minus one), and my Boise friends. Kara and I finally get to see The Maine TOGETHER! I know what makes me happy, and I can't keep forgetting it. If it wasn't for this show I think I would go insane.
I won't be surprised when this doesn't make sense to anyone besides myself, but oh well it doesn't matter. The point is, if you love something and are living without it, you can find a way to get it back. If it's truly yours, the world will give it to you.
I love being home in Boise. I love being ready for everything to happen.
I don't really know where I'm going with this, but at the same time I kind of do because I'm thinking it out in my head before I type it. I've probably got a good paragraph pre-revision in my head, ahead of my typing. Anyway, point is, I basically feel that I'm spending all my time working. Which is understandable when I'm working 9 hour shifts 5 days a week. And when I'm not working I'm getting calls about work or doing something for work. Seriously, how ever did my life get sucked into Coldstone Creamery? Like, it's easy for me to get sucked into things I'm passionate about. But Coldstone? Really? Definitely not passionate about that one.
So really, the point isn't about the work, but about balancing life and work. I spend quite a bit of time with my friends and working, but not enough time with my family and working on my personal projects. I feel my life is lacking because of it. I did take my dog for a walk downtown 2 nights ago with a friend. I feel like I've been neglecting him. But I hardly see my family. I'm rarely home in time for dinner. Thank goodness vacation is coming up. All things need balance. And I haven't worked on my music, or my clothing company. It's taking a toll.
So what do we do when our lives are unbalanced? Many people don't notice. I do. And I think the world around us (believe in what you will it doesn't matter to me) wants to try and balance that for us, because it knows it is creating something positive. I like to think that that has just happened to me. I mean, last weekend I had an absolutely fantastic weekend with friends in SLC, but after returning home I felt quite depressed. Well, not really depressed, but like I was missing somethings. I don't really know what things, just things. Feelings. Happiness. I don't know if I can ever be so happy as when I am at a show, for a musician I just love. Sometimes I forget that feeling. Then I feel it again and the world is great and new. I think my regular life has lost that flare. I just don't feel it. That's why being back from SLC was such a huge bummer. I felt the flare and realized it wasn't here for once.
But like I said, my world tries to even itself out. How nicely my life is falling back into place. There's an amazing concert a week from tonight in SLC. I will be there. With my SLC friends (minus one), and my Boise friends. Kara and I finally get to see The Maine TOGETHER! I know what makes me happy, and I can't keep forgetting it. If it wasn't for this show I think I would go insane.
I won't be surprised when this doesn't make sense to anyone besides myself, but oh well it doesn't matter. The point is, if you love something and are living without it, you can find a way to get it back. If it's truly yours, the world will give it to you.
I love being home in Boise. I love being ready for everything to happen.
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